who am i?

okay so i know i haven't been updating
like most do
but i just don't get it
where do you people find the time?

okay so i usually never talk about
anything serious
or anything that will detect who i am
but i would like to get somthing off my chest

so my father and i have started connecting after
a 20+yr hiatus
(yeah he wasnt around....but i was/am blessed with
a wonderful stepdad who stepped in his place)
anyway
so almost everytime i call him
he is at a party or bar or just some function
where its always loud
and it funny to me
because my mom is the exact opposite of him
and i just cant wrap around it
how did they ever hook up?
like my mom doesnt go out
she doesnt drink nor smoke
"she was the friend that if u told ur parents that u was with her
they knew you wouldnt get in any trouble"(c) one of my mom's friends

then you have me

i guess now i am finally getting an understanding
of who i am
why i like to go out with my friends
and party
and why i think chilling and relaxing at home
and being safe
feels just as normal as partying

i am a perfect mix of the two of them